Happiness written all over my face.

I’ve put off writing this post but here goes…

Saturday, September 7th was one year ago that everything changed. After that day came and went last fall, I cried a lot less, I started this blog, I began on the path to my future career, I became physically and mentally healthier, I grew closer to my family, and I was able to meet a lot of new and interesting people and reconnect with old friends.

I’ve become a lot stronger this year. I always thought I was strong before but now I realize how wrong I was. I couldn’t be strong while loving someone who didn’t love me back anymore. Love can make you strong or weak and that relationship was taking everything from me. I became weak the more I gave of myself and received nothing in return. There’s only so much you can give before you have nothing left.

I thought I’d be a wreck on Saturday, I’d been planning for that day all throughout the year, knowing that reaching that landmark would bring a lot of emotions. But you know what happened?

Nothing.

I did homework and laundry during the day. I went out with friends that night and had the best time. I flirted with a boy and he made me smile. I listened to Tristan Prettyman in my car without becoming a bundle of tears. I didn’t think once about my ex. I almost forgot what that day was supposed to mean to me.

I honestly didn’t think I’d be writing a post like this even just a few short months ago. I didn’t give myself a deadline to be over him, it just seemed to happen. Over the past year I kept my distance, I reminded myself of all the reasons why it didn’t work and I didn’t let myself dwell on what could have been. It was hard and at times painful but I made it through. As anyone going through any break-up knows, there’s no set time limit on how long it will take to get through the pain, it doesn’t matter how long or short of a time you spent with that other person. I’m just happy my heart decided not to torture me for a long amount of time.

How’s that for being well adjusted and over it?

BOOM.

So I didn’t put off writing this because it was going to be too difficult, I put it off because I honestly didn’t think the day really deserved any sort of acknowledgement anymore. I only decided to write something because what he gave me from that day was this, my ability to share my thoughts with all of you, whoever may be out there. I sucked up my fear of being ridiculed and began the most honest year of my life. So I thought that, in itself, was worth the words I have chosen to commemorate that day.

Thank you all for reading what I’ve chosen to pour out this past year. The support you’ve given, in any form, has been truly amazing. You’ve been the medicine to my broken heart.