Do you want to know something disgusting? While dating him I gained 30 lbs. That’s a solid chunk of weight. I warned you guys I wasn’t going to hold back much. During that extra chunky phase it was first time in years I actually looked at pictures of myself and was completely grossed out. Normally I always owned my bigger size but as big as I got with him made me uncomfortable and self conscious and I was not used to those feelings.
I want to make it clear that I am not blaming him a bit for that. It was all my own fault, I was happy and lazy. Actually, being with him was good because he got me eating things like vegetables and always encouraged healthier eating and exercise. He was kind of an inspiration to me, he had struggled with his weight before he met me and lost around 100 lbs which is something he deserves insane credit for. He never made me feel bad about myself and was never mean about encouraging me to be healthier either.
So since we ended things I’ve been working on trying to lose all that weight I accumulated. I’ve lost 25 lbs of it so far but I’m not planning on stopping at the 30. I was already what would be considered overweight before I met him so I’m hoping to take this as an opportunity to finally get healthy, something that I don’t believe I’ve ever been. I’ve always eaten straight junk food and barely exercised. I’ve never been a healthy weight, before I was overweight I was underweight…I need to find a balance in my life now.
I’ve never been the type to focus on weight and the self esteem issues that can come with it. I’ve always been very pleased with how I look, maybe even more so than I should be. Honestly I border on conceited usually. The picture below is proof of that and reflects where I’m at right now and while my doctor’s office may call me overweight, I think I look pretty amazing. I only just started dieting for the first time ever last summer. I have never believed that girls should be defined by numbers on a scale so ignoring the foods I was putting into my body and the lack of exercise was like an F you to society. Now though, I’ve realized that I’m a big enough person (haha get it…) to admit that understanding and focusing on your weight isn’t just about being skinny, it’s also important to help maintain a healthy lifestyle. That was the key I had neglected while trying to be a-okay with my body image.
So now I’ve got some goals in place, I have a trip to Daytona Beach in 45 days that I’d like to get to my halfway goal by and then in August I’m lucky enough to be a part of my dear friend Ariel’s wedding so I’d like to be at my final goal by then. Keep me motivated friends!
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You look amazing. Love the healthy eating mentality!
Kasey you look gorgeous! This past year has been my most healthy year and it feels SO good. I’ve always felt that I’m “not athletic”. When I was little ,for the most part, my mom didn’t have time to drive us to sports. I seriously almost failed gym class at BCS (why try at all at something you aren’t good at). However this year I’ve started running a lot, going to the gym, and I’ve always done my “safe” exercise of Pilates. I am surprised ,particularly with running, how much I actually CAN push myself when I get over my mental barriers. I also don’t look at the scale. I just try my best to eat healthy. I really enjoyed the documentary “Food Matters”. It made me understand the importance and benefits of nutrition. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r4DOQ6Xhqss I applaud you for getting healthy! Like they say “Nothing tastes as good as healthy feels”.
Thank you! You’ve always looked great Anna but I’m sure you feel so much better keeping active like that. And I much prefer that saying than to the one some others change to “Nothing tastes as good as skinny feels.” Healthy should be top priority.
It’s Jen from WW. I am sorry to hear everything you’ve been going through. But you are so strong through it all! You are doing great! You deserve to focus on yourself – and to be both happy and healthy! I’m just an email away if you need to vent or chat!
Thanks Jen!! I saw you’re engaged, congrats! We should catch up sometime 🙂
Thank you, I would LOVE to catch up! You can email me (jenbrockman at gmail) anytime! I’ve missed you sweet friend 🙂
Sara here from WW! You are doing amazing girl! Way better than me! Keep it up!!
Thanks Sara, you still look amazing though!
Kasey, you look amazing! (This is Tiffany from WW.com BTW.) Keep it up. You are worth it. Don’t ever forget that!
Thanks Tiff, I’m glad we reconnected, I love your advice. 🙂
❤ those curves girl! Great job on the weight loss and getting healthier. I'm always happier to hear people trying to loose weight to be healthy not because they hate themselves. It's a very important difference, To really take care of yourself you need to love yourself which can be an uphill battle in today society. I'm also trying to loose and get healthier but i try to always stay positive…keep at it! 🙂
You’re awesome Suzy! Thank you! 🙂
You’re gorgeous and your rock hard…and you’re hilarious.
So many compliments and no one to thank?! Thank you anyway 🙂
Good for u
Thank you!